acceptance.

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i am running down a line of broken trees, chasing the vandal, pleading and begging him to stop mutilating the things i love in this life.

but he is too fast, and i can't seem to catch up to him, and as i run, the trees have faces, and all the pain of loneliness in this world is clear to me.

but as i run, i also know that there are other paths, of clear, full, unbroken trees, for me to travel and enjoy, if i choose to do so, and something in me wonders why is it that i simply won't give up.

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when you offer friendship, for any reason, to anyone, your only gratification is in the pain and pleasure of giving your heart, your soul, your kindness, and your trust away.

do not demand friendship in return, do not demand, or expect, ACCEPTANCE.

it was a hard lesson for me to learn, and a very painful one.

as i was wondering, whether i have the strength to go the same way i have traversed yet again, the lesson was taught to me.

no one is responsible for your life but you, and you can only decide what you do WITH YOUR OWN LIFE.
you have, and should have, NO influence over the lives of others, and the first sign of true friendship would be accepting that.


but i did expect acceptance. i expected you to see what is being offered, understand it's importance. my heart was truly broken when none came.

i see now that only i am to blame for this pain. and i can truly say it is a relief.

so i am sorry if in my pain i have shown you anything but what i came to offer.

i am thankful for the lesson learned, and for how much lighter my heart feels tonight.




sleep well, everyone.
be kind.


peace,
shade.